It's Automagical

After much thought and debate (really just an impulse), I have decided that I will post pictures on my blogs! Yay! Images and jpeg files! So excited! All the blogs I follow are either witty, spammed with interesting photos, or a magical combination of the two. And because I posses a very low level of wit, I shall compensate with photos! I cannot guarantee that they are going to be interesting, but it's eyecandy nonetheless! And maybe (soon?) I could... post pictures of clothing?! It's kind of a deep secret of mine, but I actually adore fashion. And not trends or "stylish" things, but really well put together ensembles with fascinating pieces. I love lace and florals and stripes, but detest animal prints and HUGE BRAND LOGOS LIKE THIS. I adore Wang, Westwood, Jacobs, Comme des Garcons, Chanel and the like, but CANNOT STAND BETSEY JOHNSON. She is disgusting. I hate her pieces.

I'm not a fashionista, no. Leave that to the Antoinette Stewart, voted Most Likely to Land on the Cover of Vogue Magazine for class of 2010 of ALHS! She is great! But I do adore aesthetically pleasing outifts.

But yes, I will upload photos! And perhaps of food too! I love to cook and bake, and actually have a project for this weekend! I found some elbow pasta in the pantry last night, and my mom promised to take us to the new Fresh & Easy that just opened by my school so I might pick up some cheese and cream and make a potato gratin! Yum! And I kind of want to make some mini bagels, so I can just take a couple in the morning instead of one GIANT calorie-laden slice!

JOURNEY TO FITNESS! For Vietnamese New Year, I am starting my Journey to Fitness (yet again)! But this time, I plan to stick to it because Spring/Summer are coming up and I want to pull out my skirts and shorts I never got a chance to wear because my legs have just BLOATED to massage proportions ever since I stopped running. But I will get back on the treadmill and I will get fit! I have a motivation to look good for Senior year and wear this lovely floral bandeau bikini I got on clearance!

And uhh, I think that I will work on my... blog writing skillzzz. Because if I type the way I speak, my computer will combust from annoyance.



Plane ride to Vietnam
Winter, 2007

I'm Not Really That Bitter

My blogs tend to be on the rant-y side. Not because I'm an angry and jaded person, but because it makes me feel better to vent out my emotions in a semi-public way... Is that being an attention whore? I don't think so. There's just no one to vent out to at home- I'm not a big fan of my sibling and my mom would most likely give me a suck it up, you always have your family and there's no point in crying lecture. And she is right, I am being childish and hyperbolic when I react negatively to something that is very insignificant. But that doesn't change the fact that I still feel better when I do vent!

It's kind of like a hobby for me, ranting about something insignificant in an entertaining manner (people laugh when I rant in public). And it makes me feel good. I'm not the kind of person that hates for a very long period of time. My hatred/anger tends to be sharp and quick, with a burning intensity that overrides all reason. But once it ends, I immediately become remorseful and a little embarrassed, which I probably deserve after giving someone a verbal lashing. Oh karma, you behave in such mysterious ways.

Hypocrites

I hate hypocrites. So freaking much. I hate it when people get upset over something that they did to a person when they do it another person pretty often. I hate it. I hate feeling insignificant. I hate feeling unimportant. I hate feeling out of the loop. I hate feeling like no one's making an effort even though I'm trying my damnedest. Whatever. It doesn't even matter. It happens too often to matter.

Links

I am a firm believer that every person in this world is connected somehow. Whether it be 7 degrees or 7 thousand degrees of separation, we all have a line threaded between each other.

And with the invention of internet and social-networking sites and blogs and the like, I can't help but wonder...who follows me? What do they see? I know that no one checks my blog, and I like it that way. I don't mind either way, really. But my neighbors, my parent's friends, my family members, what do they see? What do they perceive? Strangers...what do they think of me?

My facebook is public. This blog is public. So when people check my wall or my posts and see my rants and angry statuses do they think that I'm just an angry bitchy teenager? Do they call me spoiled and ungrateful? I live in a very conservative and religious community. Does that make my liberalism and Buddhism harder to swallow? If my loving and retired and religious next door neighbors saw my facebook, saw what I claimed to be my political views and religious belief and groups that I belong to and pages I am a fan of... would they consider me a lost soul? Would my parents get the blame?

But there is no one to blame! I shouldn't feel guilty for what I am a fan of and what groups I belong to. It's all true. I am pro gay-rights. I am pro-choice. I am a Buddhist. I cuss occasionally and offend people...quite often. But that doesn't mean that I am a bad person. I want to help people. I want to heal people. There really isn't much of a difference between my God-loving, mission-going, world-saving neighbors. They just have their different motives.

I want to save the world for the sake of a better life for all of us. They want to save the world for the sake of preserving God's creations. Can you say which is the nobler cause?